Abandonment is the emotion felt by those who experience separation,
separation from Unity, and they manifest it in their reality.
Like a little one, you feel banished, you feel rejected
and that pain is so deep to make you feel separated from the whole world.
Nobody can understand how much suffering
you live when you do not feel loved, never loved enough.
There is no such a thing as a solution
for the great void aroused by that emotion.
You can try to look for affection, but nobody is perfect.
You feel yourself different, you feel ignored
as if life has isolated you.
The emptiness grows more and more
and you cannot find peace anywhere.
At the end you want to be over with it
nobody can fill your life.
Depression is a dear friend
and it grabs hold of you in no time.
Then one day you meet someone who is happy
and you think you saw the expression of peace.
You ask yourself: ”How does this person manage
to enjoy being alone?”
“Maybe I do not love myself enough.”
You look at yourself in the mirror and you do not see anything,
you feel isolated, you feel powerless.
And then you take a hot bath and you feel unburdened
it seems that water can fill your life up.
How strange, just a short time ago
you were separated from reality.
Now massage yourself, use some scented oil,
make yourself up…what did change?
Just the attention you gave to yourself!
So, perhaps the other people did not abandon you
it was you not loving yourself.
You looked for love all over the world
asking for it all around.
But the solution was closer
you did not love yourself when you were little.
The parents who brought you up
never abandoned you
they only did the best they could
in order to give you all that was needed.
Nobody teaches us to love
now you are able to
if you look at your life through the eyes of the heart.
Gurà Samir Levirò (Zelia)
